Dead to me

Dead to me


It was surprisingly easy to forget you;          
Though I always saw what they could not.
The betrayal was ultimate.
How could you do it
To them? To us?
I am ashamed to be your blood.

There was no one day when I lost you.
No car crash, heart attack, or phone call.
It was worse.
A dawning realization, like the sinking sun.
That you were scum.

A void fills my memory as if you never were.
I feel nothing towards you now.
A shadow in my past.
You are not worth hating or worthy of pity.
I wish you died before we discovered
Who you really were.

It would be easier to mourn you
Than wish death on a stranger .
I will piss in your ashes when you finally fall.
You deserve nothing less.
Eternally unforgivable, my father.