Lost in Waiting

My body Aches from head to toe.
Every Bone, But you don't know.
You wont ever know.

That every day I can barely stand
I crawl , Finding my path with my hands.
My life falls into thousands of strands.

Waiting alone, Waiting on you.
I find my self, doing things I would never do.

Every Action brings more pain
As I try to become a better thing.

When can I run fast enough, Walk straight enough
When can I Be strong enough, Smart enough
When will my life be long enough.

Lost in the things that I still see
All I think of is your beauty
I cant get past the pain to see the picture
And the picture cant be painted in the rain.

Tears, and pain, Pushing myself to the limits, too late to stop
I' m already insane. I am insanely in love with you,
Until I find the Strength , The words, My Heart
I sit and wait, In the same exact spot
Where your Voice tore my World apart.

The Pain in my bones from the weight on my chest
as I push up the weight , though its no test.
Until I Hold you, I refuse to rest.