Four Years and Seven Months Ago

Oh Dad, I am late again with remembering.

I am ashamed for I should do better.

I know that I love you and will go on loving you.

It saddens my heart to know that you are gone.

I can't help but remember the many things you taught me.

I know that it is a special thing that we have between us.

For you were always patient with me.

You never made me feel small.but one time.

I can't ever forget that and I haven't.

I know that you were trying to teach me the rigth way to live.

There are a lot of I's in this piece.

But, it isn't meant to be all for myself.

It is a time of remembering you and the death you went through.

I was there until the very end.

I know what it was like seeing you on yourf death bed.

There were tears and the last tears I have ever shed.

I can't cry now if I wanted to and I do sometimes want to.

You, I remember today and cherish the memories I have of you.

May you know that I love you dearly and will go on loving you.

I believe that you are in Heaven with Mom and went there the moment you died.

I believe that I will see you again and hopefully one day be in Heaven myself.



Ervin is still unrepentant as he was when you were alive.

I don't know what will come of him unless he changes.

Though I do know that he will burn in a devil's hell.

It is for sure that you don't want him to go there.

None of us do.

I know that I will reach Heaven by being saved and that alone.

It is so easy to talk to you like this.

I have always cherished the times we could talk together.

May you know that I love you and will go on loving you, too.

How special was I blessed in having you for my dad.

I am very fortunate.

This is something I know too.

Thank you for wanting to have me.

I am glad that I wasn't a mistake.

That is the beautiful truth isin't it Dad?

I was planned all these fifty some years ago.