Our Numbered Days

I remember us, how we used to be,
when things were simpler,
and life didn’t throw so many curves.
When we would run around
with smiles on,
because it was easier than crying.
And you, how you used to be,
with a laugh that made me smile,
no matter how much we were hurting.
Those are the days I miss the most.
I remember when we went to the park
and I pushed you on the swings,
and I was afraid you would fall
and hurt yourself,
because it was raining.
But we went anyways,
just because you wanted to go.
And I took you, because I loved you.
I will always love you.

But my biggest fear for you,
is that you won’t have the time
to do all it was that you imagined
when you were younger,
and things were simpler,
and life didn’t throw so many curves.
Because we’re sinking now, both of us.
And I see it in your eyes, and feel it in my heart.
This cancer has torn us both
to be less than any human should become.
And I only hope, that we’ll have time
to go to the park and play on the swings,
and share one more laugh,
and run around in the rain,
and tell each other how deep our love is.
I will always love you,
but it pains me now to say it,
knowing a mother’s love
should never outlast her child.


Dedicated to Justin, his mom, and his family