Judgement

Crash!
Another mess I’m in
You’d think I’d learned by now
To be strong rather than follow.

Temptation has whipped me once again.
I know - yes I know, I’m just a man.
But, I believe in God’s perfection
And I feel he was a part of this selection
Which now burdens by soul …
Dissuading me from feeling whole.

So I wander.
And I wonder
What is next on the list
Of sinister traits He’ll insist
On using to distract me
From the total harmony
That I crave…
So, I’ll save
My next ounce of energy
To pray searchingly
For forgiveness.
And kindness -

From those who do not understand
Why I am not able to comprehend
The differences they attest to
That affect my solitude
And peace of mind
As I begin to find

That love is not found from what I receive;
But it is the acceptance I believe
We all must embrace,
Thus putting sin in its place.

In God’s hands …
Not our own.