Chase the Light

[Life] is crazy/beautiful. And even when I’m fed up, I smile. And sprinkle my happiness upon those who need it more than I do... because I know in the morning when I awake, I awake surrounded by positivity.

I used to think with such negativity. In my eyes everything in life was utterly colorless, I used to think that everyone out there was out to get me. I was stuck in a gutter of melancholy, and I thought my lifetime was going to be spent in this super massive black hole. I would ponder and ponder about a reason to why I was stuck in there... so I thought quick... I didn't know what to do.

I wanted to find one whom found comfort in his misery as well as myself. And I did... I found many who we're stuck in this mindset as I was. You know what they say, misery LOVES company. Well I felt as if my misery NEEDED company. This only dropped me down deeper, in this super massive black hole. The company that surrounded me, we're discontented- so discontented that my depression was reeking out my pores. Everyone felt it. It’s as if I was dead, even though my heart was beating the life out of me. I felt like a spirit, floating throughout a room- for no one noticed my existence.

Then there was that night, we're I fell fast asleep, sober. Let me tell you, it was horrible, but it was so horrible that it turned out to be the most beautiful thing I have ever come across. I woke up, eager, and excited. And my company gazed at me- startled, and befuddled. Like where do you think you're going with all that energy? Come back, we need you. We need you, to feel as hopeless as we do.

I looked at them, and I smiled. And I told them- if you lay in your sorrow so comfortably any longer- you will fall in love with you're misery. You will never be able to get out of this black hole, which we've been stuck in for a few years now. I told them, look! There’s our chance, I know this room is very black, but do you see that little ray of sunshine shining through this room? They responded to me with such negativity, they told me that the sunlight was too little, and not enough to share. YOU MUST CHASE THE SUNLIGHT and you will become one with happiness, once again. I asked them to come with me, and they said no...

I mustn’t beg one to come find happiness, for if they don't want it within their hearts- they will not achieve it. I started climbing up the stairs of this black hole, it wasn’t an easy process. But I made my way up... and I’m looking down at my fellow friends whom hearts are shattered. I carried on with my life, absolutely happy, and high off of life. I make sure, that every time I come across something that makes me smile helplessly, I look down at that black hole... and I sprinkle my happiness upon the miserable. I sprinkle enough happiness upon them, and hopefully one day they will find the courage that I have found... maybe just maybe one day they will be soaking up the sun as myself.