An offset judgement

I aspire. A dream not so large, but still for my hands, out of reach.
I indulge. Not uncommon, a lustful being comes with this body.
I intend. Most help is appreciated if not rewarded. For this I know well.
I am different. I try to set aside and push away these things that I just can't seem to flee from.

I can try. Only an appearance or a personality. A feud or dispute a decade old. Slander thrown around and feelings demolished. Boundaries broken and lines crossed. Trespasses of culture or religion. All of these forgiven. Just, because it is what I was given.

I don't lie. To the people that matter the bonds of integrity do not fall apart.
I don't compare. Truth is, I don't most of the time. A better option lays on the table, somewhere.
I don't extort. Willingness is strong in me, but certain things should not be taken.

I can't understand. Things are odd or loose. A shift of mentality or emotions. Things can go askew and crash. Weightless transactions turn into a heated haggle, or nothing at all. A general curve, reversed in an instant. They have all been changed from what's been said