Dear Me 2010

Dear Me,

Before you attempt to make constructive goals to aim for in this new year 2010, first go back to the resolutions you set forth a year ago. Examine the things you wanted to do, reflect on the reasons you succeeded or failed in meeting those goals.

How well did you do?

Well, lets see...

You kept your word to Daddy not to grieve yourself to death at his crossing over. You shed your share of tears over his death, but did not allow yourself to end memories on a sad note. You disciplined yourself to remember some precious happy memory of Daddy with yourself, Mama, your sisters, or his grandchildren which always left you with a smile on your face.

You missed him, yet did not wish him back in the state his health had become. He is at peace, therefore, so are you.

You visited others home-bound or in Nursing homes to ease their loneliness in his memory.

You worked more than usual instead of less for the first half of 2009, but the last two months of the year you began to cut back drastically enabling you to focus more on my writing or things and people that are important to you.

You completed three writing classes with fair to good grades. You completed EMT school with excellent grades. You still work one full-time and two part-time jobs, yet less hours than before.

You purchased the mobile home you looked at and were able to move out of your travel trailer. Okay, Okay, you still don't have anymore room since you took in a family of four that had nowhere else to go, but hey, God gave you a roof. Maybe He intended for you to in turn provide one for someone else. Besides, you could not have enjoyed all that space knowing they needed a place to lay their heads.

You far exceeded the number of reviews for WDC you resolved to do in 2009, finished the writing courses, and learned much more about how to navigate the WDC site. Whoo-Hoo!

The only goal you failed to meet was learn more about meter, rhyme ect. with poetry.

Not bad! You go girl!!

Since you did well with the year 2009 you need to continue to improve on those goals this year.

As you submerge yourself into an new year, be encouraged that you can continue to find the sunshine in your life dispelling the darkness that at times tracks you down, envelopes you and tries to trick you into thinking there is no light.

You know you have another surgery coming up so take care of your physical and mental health to enable your body to heal faster. Do not worry so much about your financial status. Remember God knows what you need and He will provide.

You are enrolled in a class with New Horizons and The Writing Academy through WDC. So far, so good. Take some of those ideas you have stored and expand them into stories worth reading. Begin to write longer stories and in different genres. See how far you can go this year....see how much you can improve.

Take advantage of the extra time you will have by cutting back work hours and visit Becky in Florida, Tommy in Jackson, MS and Mandy and the kids in Clarksville, TN. Take a vacation this year. Who knows, you may find you like it.

Continue your journey with God in ways unimaginable. I know you have always had a close relationship with Him. I know you share it with others. All I am saying is find a new way to expand on that relationship this year. Be continously aware your smile may be the one that changes someones life today.

Yeah, Yeah, Yeah, I know you need to make some type of changes to help your finances, but I am the wrong person to advise you. Even when you began to save and things begin to look up in that direction either a vehicle breaks down, you have to have another surgery, pipes freeze, burst and have to be replaced, repairs have to be made to the mobile home, or another family comes along that is in worse shape than you are. That is one area you will just have to give to God and leave it there.

One thing you can do is more reviews and contests at WDC to get enough GPs to upgrade your membership to Premium again.

The only other thing I can suggest to you to do more of this year is to be easier on yourself. If you fall, pick yourself up and try again. Enjoy the child your son is expecting this spring. Get as many of those baby kisses as you can. Be the kind of grandparent your granddaddy was to you so that child will never doubt how special they are to at least one someone in this world.

Embrace your life and all you can offer, not only to yourself, but to others. Look toward heaven occasionally and say, "Look daddy, I am still striving to be the daughter you always told me I was."

With faith and belief in you,

Sandy