Going Under

I sat there on the sofa, crying, he was the one thing I've unknowingly waited for, and he was ripped from my hands.

He doesn't know what I've done for him.

I stand up, a Trans-dimentional Hole opens under me, I scream, falling through, to what? What's waiting for me? Who's waiting for me?

Now I will tell you what I've done for you
Fifty thousand tears I've cried
Screaming, deceiving and bleeding for you
And you still won't hear me, going under

I hit the ground, I am now battered, and bruised. I am so hurt, I can't get up without hurting too much. Who wants me? Why can't I have a calm, normal day like the rest of the humans? Who's wanting me? Please, I'm insignificant.

But in the distance I see him, standing, just standing, like he's waiting, but somehow, I know he's not, I struggle to my feet, emitting soft cries of pain as I do so.

Don't want your hand this time, I'll save myself
Maybe I'll wake up for once
Not tormented daily, defeated by you
Just when I thought, I reached the bottom

I limp towards him, placing a hand on his shoulder, he brushes it off.

"I don't want your help, I can save myself."

His little brush sends me falling to the ground,

"I'll wake up for once."

"So this is all just a dream?"

"Where I'm tormented by you."

I gasp, "How?"

He turns to me, and looks down.
I'm dying again, I'm going under
Drowning in you, I'm falling forever
I've got to break through, I'm going under

He knelt beside me, a kinder, gentler look forms on his face.

"I feel like I'm drowning, like I'm going under."

What prompted this sudden change in attitude?

I struggle to sit up, soft in cry in pain included,. he places his hands on my shoulders, I look into his eyes, something was inside of him, acting like his demon, and he was suppressing it trying to not let it hurt me.

Another much larger demon appears behind him, and reaches out, this demon, represents all the lies in the world, every one.

Blurring and stirring the truth and the lies
So I don't know what's real and what's not
So I don't know what's real and what's not
Always confusing the thoughts in my head

I clutch my head in agony, this demon, the bigger it gets, the more it hurts. Suddenly I can't tell the truth from the lies, they have been blurred together. I can't tell what real, and what not, The Doctor her fades into darkness, Darkness engulfs me, I'm alone, me, and the demon, it reaches out, and wraps it hand around me, trapping me.

So I can't trust myself anymore
I'm dying again, I'm going under
Drowning in you, I'm falling forever
I've got to break through, I'm

I can't trust my mind anymore, I can't tell the truth from the lies. The demon tightens it's grip as I struggle. I see The Doctor, lifeless, and floating alone in the Darkness, I suddenly feel like I can't breathe.

So go on and scream
Scream at me, I'm so far away
I won't be broken again
I've got to breathe, I can't keep going under

I scream at The Doctor to wake up, he don't respond, he's too far away to hear, it continually gets harder for me to breathe, and soon I'm gasping for air, and still the demon tightens it's grip around me.

I let out a scream, begging for The Doctor to wake up, I want out of this hell, I want to be home. Home where it's safe, where this doesn't exist.

Still, I beg for him to wake up, He can't the demon as imprisoned him in a nightmare, he can't escape, and neither can I.

I'm dying again, I'm going under
Drowning in you, I'm falling forever
I've got to break through, I'm going under
Going under, I'm going under