A Hard Decision

I want to say I love you but I cannot find the words,
they seem to fly from my mouth like a bunch of frightened birds.
The feelings that I have for you are deep inside my heart,
but for me to say the words, I find it hard to start.

I want to say I love you and how much you mean to me,
how you are the only one who can fill my heart with glee.
Maybe if I thought that I had some kind of chance with you,
the words that I want to say would finally come through.

I think I'm afraid you'll laugh at me when I make my move,
because of the difference in our age, you might disapprove.
Even though I know that you think I am very funny,
the job that I have does not pay me lots of money.

So how could I take you out to the places you deserve,
I want to ask you out but I just don't have the nerve.
I look at you and your beauty is all that I can see,
then I realize that you and I can never be.

When I look at you, I see the love that's in your eyes,
suddenly you speak, and give me a big surprise.
I can't believe my ears, when I hear "I love you, Bob"
My knees get very weak and my heart begins to throb.

I stutter as I say the words I love you too,
then what happens next makes me feel very blue.
I realize that you and I can never be,
you deserve much better than being stuck with me.

When I come out and tell you why I feel this will not work,
your eyes well up with tears and I feel like a jerk.
then you say, " I know you're right, this is where our story ends,
though we won't end up lovers, I hope we can still be friends."