39 Now Repent I Must

39  Now Repent I Must


O please don't worry about my pain
It is my problem;  I cannot complain

And you can't help being callous and cold
For that's a habit, I have been told

I'm sick and tired of my crazy heart
So come, my love, and break it apart

For a heart for you is only a toy
So don't hesitate and come and destroy

Oh, you look so beautiful when you're cross
That your being angry is never a loss

And on your kindness I have no claim
And if I've lost you, I'm only to blame

And yes, I'm a victim of my passion and lust
But SHAIDA says now that repent I must
   

            URDU GHAZAL


Mujhay band e gham say na aazaad ker
Khuda ra sitam aur eejaad ker

Too ker paas e naamoos e rasm e sitam
Na aey bairaham tark e baidaad ker

Hawaadaar ko kuchh hawa aur day
Yeh barbaad dil aur barbaad ker

Aey khaanabarandaaz aa ker kabhee
Too ghaarat dil e klhaanabarbaad ker

Naiy day kay rang e itaab o ghazab
Fazoon aur husn e Khudadaad ker

Gira dergeh e Haq say too khud hay dil
Na ker daad itni, na faryaad ker

Kati umr SHAIDA hawas maen teri
Hay waqt aakhri, ab Khuda yaad ker