Why

lost in the aftermath of another poor decision.
struggling to keep my head above the confusion
...staring at the sky

"is this what you saw for me! tell me, is this what you really had in mind?
(well if your disappointed... so am i)
look me in the face and tell me, who and what, you wanted me to be.
(tell me something! anything!)
tell me who i could have been! what i should have done and said!
but most of all, please god, just tell me why..."

"why was i made this way! why wasnt i created pure and strong?
what was the reason for making me struggle, if all along you knew that id be wrong?
how could you be like this! why would you make me, just to fail?
why would you say that i could go to heaven, if you knew right from the start id burn in hell?"