You're My Hopeless Romanitic

Sure, i'd like to :) His exact message that night. I wasn't sure how to go about answering that... for some reason I had a haunting feeling that this was just another sick joke that someone was playing. I had been heart broken with a recent loss of my beloved dog Spring and had been talking to him for a while. I had known him for a year now but had never really had any real conversation with him. Until of course now, I guess it started around Semi Formal where everyone's running around asking people to go with them to the dance because no one wants to be alone. I was mad about something and was just talking to him randomly one day. It had turned out that he also didn't approve of the moron that had decided to be a jerk towards me more than once. I swear to God this kid was out to get me. He was and still is a violent brute that doesn't now about self control. I had never liked him much in the first place so that didn't help. I think he was just looking for somewhere to release his anger at the world and I had been at the wrong place at the wrong time.( Just so you know violence is not the answer!) Which made me feel better seeing as one person agreed with me. Anyways that's not when we fell in love. I can't say it was love at first sight, I mean I did think he was sort of cute when he was going out with my friend but I wasn't crushing on him or anything.

Now as I sat there reading his words for a third time to make sure I didn't misread something I realized that this was the end. The end of my loneliness, and the beginning of butterflies. I mean now that I think about it everytime I remember we're meeting in the morning I get butterflies and can't eat, ending in extreme hunger by the time I hit lunch yet too scared to eat anything still just in case they come back. God he was cute, sure his hair was kinda shaggy and maybe he wasn't the Jock everyone was drooling over but he was still cute. With the football player appearance you wouldn't think that he was a techy. Not the weird nerdy ones that are like "Whoa dude you totally have a Dos operating system...that's like totally retro!" Ha, no nothing like that more of the video gamer but heck...I'm kind of one too. Not only was his...well appearance cute he had an amazing personality. I mean, most guys remind you to something along the line of potatos or something but he was nice. Definitely not the generic moron who didn't respect a girls wishes and thought it would be funny to poke fun at the fact that she was still single. No he wasn't like that at all he was a genuine nice guy and cared about his girl no matter what. So I've got to tell you I'm a hopeless romantic, so when he said he'd bring the flowers when we were joking around about the zombie apocolypse being our first date. I'm was shocked that he knew roses were my favourite it was funny. Though roses are pretty cliche if you ask me but still I love roses. Anyways, I think that's the day we fell into the pool of love, or at least I did, I'm not sure if he did then or not but I'm thinking he did.

Since this day I've realized something, I'm so hopeless it isn't funny. I get butterflies whenever I see him smile and I wonder if it's just lust or something but then when he hugs me I realize it isn't. I think it's the fact that he's the most cheesy boyfriend you could get. I mean really, this guy is ridiculous when it comes to us hanging around the school or walking the halls. One day after exams we had to stay at the school till three when our buses came and we were talking to friends of his and he comes over and puts his head on my shoulder as I pull out my phone to see what he was doing with it. Anyways that's not the half of it, when he had to leave I made my move and pecked him on the cheek, he'd of course done the same twice before but he asked why I hadn't so I dove and well let's just say it ended in my "bad aim" rep. Though i know for a fact he doesn't mind. This must have been ...I don't want to say this but...."Love", if it were then I wouldn't have a mini heartattack when ever he touches me. But there's this little part of me that wonder's if I'm doing something wrong. I mean I fear for the day I tell my mom. Why I don't know but I just do. Knowing her she'll go all gushy on me. This is one of those things that's not hard to keep and yet I'm torn between telling her and not. I mean it's my first um.... boyfriend? And she should know right? But then there's the other part of me that doesn't want to say anything because I'll get the lecture...and that's awkward...that and well... he sort of has the same last name as this guy that no one should trust. He's not of course related but how do I prove this to my parents? It's a toss up. Right now as we speak she doesn't know. I mean I'm still the innocent little girl in my parents eyes. And I still am but now I have someone looking after me. Someone other than them. It kind of makes me feel good, but in away I'm always nervous about what might or could happen. I mean you hear about so many bad things that happen to people these days... then again he's a Major League Gamer.... Lame, I know but it's the cute kind of lame and psh come on you've got to admit i'm pretty damn lame myself. So I guess it's alright.... and ha, we've established some boundaries... That's good ...right? Or is that just crazy, I'm pretty sure it's good because I know he'll respect what I ask now... so yeah. I'm a smart girl in doing that... I hope and he wasn't offended or anything. So.... I have a pretty good feeling that it's gunna be alright. Now i'll I've got to do is take the next plunge into ice water and tell my mom at least. Dad can't know, he'll totally freak out, and that's bad. I mean really bad, my dad get's quiet mad at the slightest little thing that this could really set him off.

Oh dear...I've just got to say that... uh, this is good I mean besides the fact that my parents don't know yet he's a good guy. And i doubt i'm gunna get hurt, if i do i've got like several people adult and not that whill kick is ass if anything happens. So i'm sure it'll be all good.

I have to say, he is pretty awesome.