Relationship Suicide.

Relationship suicide

I pull the trigger.
I press the button to detonate.
I set the traps.
I wait for it to cave in.
I manipulate the situation,
  to go the way I plan.
I look for any reason to run,
  to not fight,
  to not take a stand.
I give up and I always try;
  but not enough
  to make a difference.

Relationship suicide.

Why do I enter them,
  only to find ways to kill it?
I'm afraid of losing,
  of hurting,
  of never recovering;
  I admit it.
I always try,
  but I always give up.
Relationship suicide.

It's how I protect myself.