Shallow Water

It has been so long,
Standing in deep waters
That should be shallow.
Pain comes in each wave,
The water, brackish and muddy.
I hated coming here
This place of no refuge.
A place where starkness reigns
And sorrow rules.
Ghosts of the past,
Fears of the future,
And agony of the present
Prevail in each labored breath.
"You are foolish" said I to I,
"It lies only in your mind
And your apprehension."
But I was only kidding myself,
As the rip tide nears
And I know I need to turn back
To the shallow, clear water
Made of summer rain
And not my tears