“To Live Life Anew”

Anything for love today
my memory of yesterday,
a tiny brook from a stream
that leads to a pond pale blue,
where we played childish games
with Dad sun tanning on the bank,
trying to teach me swimming games.

Never to be afraid or panic like today,
Dad wiping away our tears of failure
in a memory of mom with a lover,
Dad pleading on his cell phone -
"Maggie! What about Caryn
she’s only seven years old,
If it is me, why punish her
so sadly weeping why?”

When I see my dad crying
anything for love tomorrow
I hold his hands to calm him,
can we skip down to the pond
before the ducks fly away again,
like mom to another day, yesterday
a broken dream shattered in my mind.

My Dad is all I need to live a new life,
the safest place from evil thoughts
in memory of the sad divorce,
no need for lonely nights
in thoughts of anger,
crying on my pillow
praying for mercy.

There in the sky
a vision of angels
twinkling like stars,
brightly burning a light
shining a new life for me,
no need to dream of failure
seeing the family of ducks diving,
gliding landing softly there by my side.