to sit alone

cool summer air surrounds me
the streets are drying, following the path
of my tears
it matters not that the sky today
is not blue, just for a while
I feel like springtime on this July morn...
the apartment is no longer as empty
for three weeks ago
I adopted a black and white kitten
with bluish eyes, like mine
as he curls up in my lap
for hours in front of the television
his warmth does not replace
the strength of your arms

but no matter
you chose to flee
and my life must continue,
somehow

yes, these summer days
get mixed, Thursdays akin
to Sundays
i will not see Greece, nor did I see
the fireworks we celebrated together
for so many years… one day soon
I may find the courage to sit alone
in dark movie house
or under an ornamental elm
in the botanical gardens we never visited
but I will learn not to bow
to a barren heart without your love


to sit alone
[2011.17.7...a]
29 lines of free verse