You and Me

I have my mobile in my hand
I look again to see
It's the hundredth time I've looked
For a text from you to me

And once again I'm disappointed
There's nothing there for me
I'm having trouble understanding
Why your not texting me!

He's just a mate or so you say
So why'd he touch your phone
Why he'd read your messages
When they arent even his own.

The months we spent together
Breaking through my shell
Was that all for nothing?
Might have been as well

Was I just a notch to you?
Or did you just get scared?
A virgin you could use and drop
Or is that a bit unfair?

I wish you would have talked to me
And told me how you felt
I know I could have handled it
It's not like I'd just melt

You never meant to hurt me
You told me many times
But what do you expect
With your distancing and lies.

You said you weren't ready
You weren't even out
So how could it continue
With someone like me about?

Someone who was growing
Accepting me for me
Not keeping things inside myself
Allowing them to see.

I guess I'll never find out
The honest reason why
It seemed so sudden way back then
To such a naive guy

We've spoken briefly since then
You seem no more mature
Now I am the grownup
And still you seek a cure

I pity you now sadly
I think you'll never find
The courage or the confidence
To free from this bind.