Not Mad at You

It’s just you and me again man
One on one in a Mexican Standoff
And neither of us are running away
Now that I have you where you should be
I have something to say
I want you to know that I’m not mad at you

You may be a good friend of mine
One that had a few noticeable flaws
You let me down a couple of times
Maybe one time too many
But hey, I’m not mad at you

You may have been someone
Someone I looked to for a friendship
You didn’t put enough effort to make it happen
But I’m not mad at you

You may have been someone who used my trust once or twice
Then one day you betray and abandon me
You’ve got what you needed outta there
So you no longer had use for me
Heartbreaking? Yes. Vengeance-inducing? No
I’m not mad at you

You may have been someone who hurt me
A regular bully giving me physical or emotional pain to cope with
Whether it was in my early youth
Or even more recently
What you did somehow got to me
But despite filling my body with pain
I’m honestly not mad at you

You could even be the worst of them all
You might have been that person who almost permanently ruined me
What you did could have made me take my own life
That emotional pain you sent me through those years ago
Was inhumane and unnecessarily cruel
But despite how bad it was and how upset I am
I’m still not mad at you

Why am I not mad at you?
No matter how bad things were for me
No matter how bad YOU were to me
How can I avoid holding such anger towards you?

The answer is a bit cheesy
But it honestly is true
It’s not something that I’m able to do

You may be the good but flawed friend
Or even the worst pain inducer of my life
But I can’t hold anger really towards anyone
Let alone wish ill upon someone like you

This makes me a better person
And maybe one day you’ll see it’s true
But no matter what you try to do to me
I’ll never be mad at you


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