An Old Friend

I think I have had enough of this shit
Yet every time I get the chance, I take a hit
Not caring what it has done to me
The effects which are clear for everyone to see
But every time I say I'm going to get clean
I go four to five days, then back to the dope scene
I don't know why I am always giving in
Wasting my life this way must be a sin
All the time trying in vain
To erase the madness and end the pain
It has always been the answer to all my heartache
Once I am on it, life is a piece of cake
Or at least it seems that way for a little while
But not long enough to make me smile
I am finally starting to see
That all it is good for is causing misery
I see it in my friends, in the mistakes they make
You would think that alone would make me quit for my own sake
Without it I know my life wouldn't be such a mess
But saying goodbye to it is like losing an old friend, I guess
An old friend that in the past always seemed to care
An old friend that was almost always there
But most of all, an old friend who I could always trust
Trust to make me feel good, the way I always must
But as the years have passed, that all is beginning to fade
And all I have to look back on is all that it has made