The Fight

The Fight

Why does my mind never obey?
I try and try with all my might
and still my thoughts lead me astray.

All of my visions are seen in gray;
once delightful things now seem to fright.
And still my thoughts lead me astray.

I try to keep the bad at bay
while scenes of blood are staining sight.
Why does my mind never obey?

The pain I feel I can't convey.
"Please someone tell me all's all right!"
And still my thoughts lead me astray.

My sanity anchor, beloved Quay,
my only reason to live despite...
Why does my mind never obey?
And still my thoughts lead me astray..........

Author's Note:

This poem is written in the style of a Villanelle.
If you would like to know more about this form, please visit: Villanelle  

The inspiration and idea behind this poem is Bipolar Disorder. I have been diagnosed as bipolar for over 5 years now and it never gets any easier to cope with. Especially when medicines can cause just as much harm as the disorder itself, and highs and lows can be caused by regular life events beyond your control. This is an excellent reference about Bipolar Disorder  .

The person I refer to in my final stanza... 'Quay'... He's my husband. He's very much is a sanity anchor for me as I go through the swings of being bipolar. I don't know what I would do without him in my life as a support and guide. He does so much for me and I truly appreciate him body and soul.

This poem has been submitted in the following contest:

ID: 1215871   (Rated: E) Rising Stars Shining Brighter  Contest for existing Rising Stars...Monthly award of "Shining Star" status. by Tornado Day