Trying

Trying



Trying to be perfect  has never worked

Not as well as  being the perfect jerk.

Make myself crazy with desire to please

Does not happen  with any amount of ease.



Always fearful I’ve not done enough

Forever afraid I’ve been too tough.

Reaching out and exposing my heart

Only leaves me feeling bad from the start



Same mistakes over and over again

The definition of being insane.

I expect each time for better outcome

Always end up saying this time I’m done.



In time I go back and let myself see

Something I’m not or was ever meant to be.

It’s not very pretty this game I play.

Tired of trying and being this way.



Again I will try, I will make it work

Then I will not feel like the little jerk.

Respect will be tasted world to be mine

Will have convinced all,  I’m one of a kind.



With ego improved, self image restored

Finding the me that was left on the floor

Pick myself up and dust off the pain

Will get on with being who I  am.