Unwritten

Before I knew the other half of me,
all I knew was how to feel alone and empty.
Got set in my destructive ways,
reached a point of no return, I got lost in the haze.

But I saw a little flicker
that melted the ice.
From then on you were my rock,
secured me with your might.

Day after day, I chip away at you,
from boulder to pebble.
I just don't know how to change,
I've always been a rebel.

I've broken you down,
and kicked you a few times.
Done so much wrong,
there's no way it would rhyme.

My excuses are synonymous,
and mediocre at that.
"Sorry" doesn't work anymore,
my credibility's fallen flat.

I never realized it until
I put paper to lead,
how I have just ripped
your heart to shreds.

I can admit it,
but change has lost it's way
You give me your all,
because taking is my forte.

You take the emotional beating,
it's all I've ever given.
This messed up person I am
has affected our way of living.

I know some days are good;
smiles outnumber the tears,
but everytime you pull this scab,
this problem reappears.

I wonder sometimes
if I'm too selfish to care.
It's just nobody has ever wanted me,
I'm still learning to share.

I don't know what you see in me,
these words tell the truth.
I'm not fit to be loved by anyone
as amazing as you.

I've turned us into monsters,
myself atleast.
You tell me I'm "beauty,"
but I'm the beast.

Obviously I have nothing to offer,
you should know that by now,
but by some God sent miracle,
I've kept you around.

Occasionally you reach a moment of sanity;
you question us and why you're with me.
My head wants you to go and leave me behind,
Make some other person's life as beautiful as you've made mine.

Find someone that loves you more
than I ever could,
they'd put you first,
make you feel understood.

Support you and need you
so much, it's crazy.
You could keep them in your arms
and be proud to call them baby.

But sadly,
my head loses to my heart.
I know I can be that person,
I just don't know where to start.

I promised you forever,
and that's one I'll never break.
Im just scared that I wont prove it to you
until it is too late.

But I love you big,
I love you so much.
Tonight words mean more,
than the usual crutch.

My hearts all I have,
your name is on it.
Stick with me please,
I'll kiss it better, I promise.

I know im not the best,
but my Love's only for you.
You are my hero,
I'm nada without my boo.

If it all ends tonight,
and the bottom falls through,
the best thing that happened in my life,
was being loved by you...