Could I?

Could I put down the paper and just forget my own mind?
Could I turn off the amplifiers and leave them behind?
Could I lock my pencils away and make the attempt to forget?
Could I keep my emotions caged again and disregard regret?
Could I throw all my clothes away and get rid of all the chains?
Could I lie to my own face and forget my past and pains?
Could I summon up the strength to just let my hair be natural?
Could I wash out all the colours and just let my hair be normal?
Could I take my piercings out of my lip and take them out of my nose?
Could I take out my tongue ring and gauges and then let the holes close?
Could I throw away all of my boots, the knee high and the combat?
Could I go to wearing normal shoes and could I commit the act?
Could I change my sense of humor and change my sense of style?
Could I become what they call "normal" if I started walking the miles?
Could I retrace the path I walked and take back all I am?
Could I go back and be a different boy and turn into a different man?
Could I change the way I speak and also change my personality?
Could I become someone different and would my mom recognize me?
Could I just walk away from all I am and everything that I have ever loved?
Could I drop it all and just be "normal", is that something I could become?
Could I do all of these things and pretend my life never happened?
Could I be just like everyone say I should, could I be a "normal person"?
Could I tell you this is what I want and have it be the truth?
Could I tell you it was in my heart with out me lying to you?
Could I trade my blacks for blues and my darks for some lights?
Could I trade my "odd" for "normal" and rearrange my whole life?

...Never in my life "could I" because I wouldn't...