Raped by My Best Friend

It seemed we were the best of friends,
at least that’s what I thought.
After what you did to me,
too bad you didn’t get caught.

You know exactly what you’ve done,
and I’m here to finally say.
That raping me in my sleep,
was simply not okay.

When I woke the next morning,
there was Semen inside of me.
I know I wasn’t seeing things,
it came out when I peed.

I minimized this in my mind,
and denied that it was true.
There’s no way we had sex,
because I trusted you.

I continued being friends with you,
like it never even occurred.
Causing damage to myself,
and making the rape a blurr.

We both had our own addictions,
with childhood baggage too.     
You drank alcohol, I did drugs,
for the pain we each went through.

We shared a lot of personal pain,
and common things we shared.
With you I was most vulnerable.
because I thought you cared.

One night I took a pill to sleep,
and trusted you when you stayed.
How was I to ever know,
that I was going to get laid?

For a year I couldn’t face this.
still in denial I believe.
Now I’m facing it head on
so this demon finally leaves.

I thought that I would hate you,
but instead I hated me.
I've forgiven you for what you've done,
now I know I'm finally free.