Monsters

Honesty betrays me,
It caves in to my fears
It runs and hides from all my ghosts,
Of long ago so many years.

Courage still alludes me,
And robs me of my sight
I'm wandering in darkness,
Searching desperately for light.

I don't know how I got here,
But I've fallen down again
Tried and tempted until once more,
I gave in to my sin.

And I start to shake and shutter,
At the demons of my past
Who have appeared yet once more,
And tell me I won't last.

And I listen to their empty words,
And they cut deep
These monsters they surround,
And threaten me.

And I fear that now they've done it,
Somehow they have won
I'll soon be gone, be lost forever,
And forever's just begun.

Then one thought comes and hits me,
And calms my very soul
It rests my weary, troubled mind,
And even makes me bold.

"If Jesus truly came to save me,
And I've found a friend in Him,
Why do I ever fear the monsters,
That I know will never win?"