Always In Hiding

I’m shy and that’s why I’m not coming out today
Don’t look at me that way!
I cried for many hours and could not sleep for many days
In fear that you might notice me in anyway
For I am not worthy to shine for all to see
Yet everyone notices me
I hide out in my room when I got nothing to do
I don’t like to bother anyone not even you.
Yet again I am always called out to do my chores and give my daily dues
Though I can say I’m happy, in reality I’ve got the blues
Please don’t call me out for I go red with fright
As blood rushes to my head with all its might
For I have no plans to be seen
I just want things to be as they have always been
They call me a hermit, an introvert or recluse
But really all I am is afraid of abuse
I’m afraid of you judging me and giving me false dreams
Criticizing and hitting me with harsh words in the name of mainstream
When all I really want is to be who I am
In every way and every day who I am, who I really am!
That’s what I want to be.
I’m just a person don’t you see?
If you shower me with love and understanding I’ll become who I’m truly meant to be!