Wormwood

i lived in a world of lies
kept stable by your ceaseless disregard of honesty.
webs of deceit shrouded my eyes from the reality of life.
from the reality of what is...
blinded by a false sense of security,
i lived day to day, in love with a smile
that was more ruthless than i ever could have imagined...
in awe of the eyes that would watch,
as i suffered a pain worse than death...

foolish and naive i embraced, with everything i had to give.
i left nothing...
i lived for every moment i was blessed with your presence,
yearning for your affection...

as i revolved around youre hollow light,
i thanked god for allowing me the honor of youre presence ...
the gift of suffering everyday, for something i was willing to die for.

then like a sick joke, you showed your true colors...
like a stroke of lightning, you were gone.
truth poured from your lips,
like an ocean of knives.

you were done.
and apparently had been for some time.

clearly, i can understand.
you dont just tell someone how you feel,
or when things change...
you wait.
you let them live in a world of pretense, until its convenient.
then you let them in on the joke. and we all just laugh...
and move on.
cause, you know, its that easy...

"youll get the hang of it,
dont worry..."