The Principle of Uncertainty

The Principle of Uncertainty
by
Keaton Foster

Look into a mirror, deep into the depths of your eyes. Make sure that no one is around. Speak with certain clarity and absolute precision. Understand the questions that need to be asked and then wait for a reply.

Who am I?

You are all that you allow yourself to be. In this life, you are your own worst enemy. You are a human of confused proportions. A lost child long before you became an adult. You are just one of us in a vast endless sea of no one special. You are a person of great value to those who love you more than life itself.

Why am I here?

Quite simply, to live. I am afraid, nothing more and nothing less. Because God has a plan for you, yet the true nature of your design he keeps to himself. Because your parents decided that you were a burden that they were not willing to destroy. Because life is more powerful than any other force on earth, it always finds a way.

What is this thing called life?

No one knows for sure, and for certain you will never know. It is a spark that turns into a flame that in an unspecific time burns away. It is everything to you and I, and to all who love us and need us most. It is a side effect of the Garden of Eden, for God never intended for us to procreate.

Does God have influence on my life?

He has none, for free will is part of his masterful plan. Fools believe he has time to manage us all, unfortunately that is not the case. He loves you but only as a child in his flock, as an adult you are on your own. He has the power to end it whenever he likes, yet he does not tire of you just yet.

Why am I the way that I am?

Because you are unique in your masterful arrangement of flaws. Someone has to be and you seem to be doing just fine. Because you have seen much in your life and it has jaded you along the way. There is no real reason. It is all just an excuse that you use on a daily basis to get your way.

Will I ever escape the past that holds me down?

No, I am afraid that you will not for the weight it represents is just too great. You can try to change in an effort to flee, but in the end, you will just be you. Some would say yes, but the reflection that I see is clear and I say most certainly no! It is your darkness. It is your cross to bear in this life. You will never escape the responsibility.

Will I be ok?

What is ok, compared to great or extraordinary? I don't think so because of the self-destructible nature of who you are. It is a subjective question, for there is no answer that will ever fit. It all depends on you, for in this life you hold all the keys to the locked doors in your way.

What is love and how do I define it to myself?

Impossibility comes to mind. Love is all you want it to be in this world. Love is a life worth living for it makes us all smile. Is not explainable or definable, I am afraid for that is part of its allure.

Will I live another day?

Maybe. I am not sure. I don't think so but what do I know? Just in case, tell all the people that you know how you feel for it might be too late after today. Do you want to? If so, there is a good chance that you will. Surely, God is not done with you yet. After all, it is just getting good isn't it? Yes, I would say so if I was not so unsure of the answer you seek my friend.

Will I ever find inner peace?

I am afraid your inner place is in far too many pieces to ever be as one. No, for the outer realm that surrounds you is far too fucked up. Only in death, but in that case you won’t know you found it because you will be dead. Maybe for just a few seconds in your life, so enjoy them while they last for it won’t be long.

Does anyone really care?

No, most definitely not for they are too consumed with themselves. Why should they, you are just a stranger to most of them in this place. They try but when you turn away, they often run like hell to escape. To change the answer to this question you must first start with yourself.

What’s the meaning of it all?

Well if I knew that, this prose would not be called "The Principle of Uncertainty." I don't know, and quite frankly I don't care. I just want to survive it all as long as I can. Ask God when you meet him, and of course, you will be dead so you won’t be able to convey it to anyone. At least not anyone alive that is. It is up to you to decide that, I cannot tell you for that would ruin the surprise at the end of the ride.


Fiction: The Principle of Uncertainty
Written by Keaton Foster Copyright © 2012.