Expectations

Mom. Dad. I can't do this anymore.
I can't keep fighting this endless war.
I can't live up to what you want me to be.
I can't go on with what you expect of me.

I'm not your little angel. And I'm not perfect in any way.
So why do you pressure me so hard, when I will never change?
I'm not in second place. I'm not the number one.
Don't treat me any different, I'm only just your son.

There is no way I can comply.
When my grades keep on slipping, and life just passes by.
I'm sorry I'm not perfect. I know I've made mistakes.
Every night I fall asleep, I wish I'd never wake.

I can't live up to your expectations,
When every fail leads to separation.
I swear, I keep on trying,
When deep inside I feel like dying.

I don't like sitting here, when you lash me with your tongue.
One day I'll look back, and ask myself, "What have I become?"
Till then, I'll try to make you proud.
Keep on going 'till I fall to the ground.

I may lie there and just cry,
Or pick myself up and still try.
Or maybe I'll just break there, when I remember you.
How I could never be good enough, In any way for you.