In the Pit

In the Pit

The pit of despair is where I find myself tonight,
Wading in the quicksand that threatens to pull me down,
Emotions bombarding me like arrows piercing my soul,
How did I sink so low?

The emotional roller coaster that I am on,
Threatens my sanity in ways I can’t explain,
Sorrow envelopes me swallowing me whole,
How did I get entangled so?

Your voice I use to hear in my ears,
In the small part of my soul I sense you’re there,
Every other voice drowns out your words,
My God how did I get here?

My spirit is broken by my choices,
Choices not made through you,
My wrists are ready to be slit,
But still I want to turn to you.

My pit of despair, the place I seem to go to
When Lord you seem far away

My trust in people, in You is fleeting,
But there is joy inside your love.

I turn to You my Lord,
I raise my pit, my comfortable place to mourn
To You my Lord

I am a wayward child
Trying to come home
But home seems so far away

Lord I need you now
More than I did before
Take my fractured spirit
Make me whole