Just me giving a few thoughts

No one knows me.. but thats not the problem
discussions with myself on how i should solve them
i dont know myself my feelings someone robbed them
im extremely tired ok ill tell the truth im depressed
but knowing that doesnt help me see whats next
wading through the held back tears cause im a man
fighting to find my purpose.. its my plan
doesnt make sense that im scared of success
cant put it together this is the impossible test
the answers i can see them but i just cant read them
if Jesus was real then i would say that i need him
im missing out on life being cooped up in my room
i have a woman that loves me but shell be gone soon
my life will then return to its normal monsoon
complete blackness so i drink and try to rap this
to try and prove something but i only feel im fronting
trying to wear a mask feeling like i dont fit the picture
brought into this world left to fend for myself
i need insight that only comes from an aged shelf
by the way just so you know this isnt a cry for help
this is what i like to call the next step