Small, Fragile Body

"Small, Fragile Body"
(started 8/11/01. finished 8/27/01 - age 17)

In the midst of her despair
It's raining,
Her clothes fusing to her small, fragile body
A small, fragile body that's viewed
As the greatest of evils,
But only to her.

Its raining,
But this small, fragile body
Is rapidly moving.
Exhausted.
Wobbly and unstable from over-use
And self abuse.
Days have gone by since she ate.
Days filled with over-use
And self abuse.

The mind that's sheltered in this small, fragile body
Endlessly reminding her she's not good enough.
She believes.
Collapses from over-use
And self abuse,
Outside where it's raining.
Alone.


The small, fragile body awakens
In a small, stale room.
Tubes in her arms,
Tears in her eyes.
Soon forced to start
Down a new, scary path,
Disobeying herself a million times over.
In the midst of her despair
Its raining
And she's stuck inside
To stop the over-use
And self abuse
Of the small, fragile body.

Mine.