|Late Sunday afternoon, I was watching some educational programs on TV when I drifted off to sleep and had a wonderful dream about Johnny Angel.
Now, I have dreams about him ever so often--and, during the past few months, they've always been the same.
I either wake up before we make contact or else we have a very brief contact, and he goes off somewhere without so much as a peck on the cheek, and I never see him again for the entire dream.
But this dream was different.
In the dream, we talked on the phone, and he told me that he was seeing someone else--which explained a lot of things to me, such as why he seemed to be needing space for the past several months.
But he went on to say that his friends asked him if the relationship were going to get serious, and he replied, "I hope not!"
It was as if he were wanting someone to hang out with but wasn't ready for someone who would tie him down.
Later, I was talking with a couple of women in his office. I don't think that either one of them was anyone I'd seen there before, but they were part of his staff, other lawyers, or something. Not sure just what.
And they told me that he really wanted to be with me, if I would only give him a chance to be a man.
No, they didn't mean if only I would sleep with him. They meant that he needed to do the pursuing instead of me.
I thought that seemed rather shallow and I wondered if I could stand to be married to someone like that--where he was threatened by someone who didn't stay in her role as "the little woman."
But it wasn't exactly like that. He just wanted to have me to hang back a little until he could put it together in his head re: where our relationship was heading and could make a decision.
About that time, he came into the room, and he tried to put a distance between us by ignoring me, but I got his attention and asked him if he would just stay close to me for a few minutes.
All at once, we were lying on this day bed (fully clothed), and he was lying on top of me.
He didn't try anything with me that he shouldn't--just held me in his arms so I would know that he really liked me (or, at least, didn't find me repulsive).
It felt so good to be held close by him--but I was expecting him to get up and leave at anytime. That he was only trying to be nice to me.
Then, all at once, his lips were on mine, and his tongue was exploring my mouth. I explored his mouth with my tongue.
And we just lay there holding each other and kissing for a few minutes.
Then, he told me he had to go--but I had this wonderful feeling of being sure that he would be back again before long.
Then, I woke up!
I hope my dream comes true, and I can't help wondering if Johnny Angel were dreaming about me at the same time I was dreaming about him!
Do you think he was?
Johnny Angel! If you're reading this, let me know if you were!