At Night

At night, when I lay next to you
I reach for you
Wanting you
To fullfill my needs

At night when I lay in another city
I think of you
Wishing you
Were close enough to hold

But some nights
I sit in the other room
Not ready to let sleep take me
Wondering, why--

Why don't you come for me
Seek me out
Show me love
Show me you desire me?

Why don't you need me
As I need you
Do I not excite you?
Do you not want me?

Am I an inconvenience
When I reach for you?
Do you just wish to go to sleep
Instead of kiss me, touch me?

I sit in the other room
Wishing you would come to me
Wonder why I'm not laying next to you
Prove to me you want me there

I sit in the other room
Thinking about when we are together
How you drive me wild
Titillating my senses.

I sit in the other room
Reminiscing how you touch me
The feel is so real
Like there is love behind it

But what of my absence?
The lack of me next to you
Do you pretend
I'm in another city still?

What of me not being next to you?
Do you miss my warmth?
My embrace
My light kiss on your cheek?

So I sit here.
Tears gently falling down my cheek
Wondering why I am wasting our time
Not going and laying close to you...

And I get up.