A Hand's Pain

Life is lost
I gain nothing
Souls. Spirits.
Long lost things.
Nothing ever known
Ignorance bliss
Kill. Die.
Foolheardy breath

Apologies never spoken
Two Souls attached
Love. Loss. Gain.
Reverberation of mind.
Let me be as I was

Systems fail.
Feelings are dead
Trees in the parking lot.
Freedom. As it is.
As it was. Not knowing

Lifeless. Listless.
Trophies of flame.
Topigraphical.
Understated
I wash of my hands

I cannot give in.
Don't know the game.
Meaningless. Sensational.
Overbearing Parentage.

I have not gone.
Loosing myself.
Release. Break free.
Enough of the pain.

Where am I?
What am I?
Loneliness. Longingness.
No shame. No shame.

Love's never gained.
What have I done?
Who knows?
Who has?
Situated within.