Cobwebs

Author's Note: This poem is a poetical attempt to sort out some things in my life. The highlight is the woman at the end, the one person who can put my whole life back together and for this I will always love her.

Eight-legged spider
wrapped around my brain.
Feeding on the shame,
feasting upon my pain.

The web of deception
been spun across my eyes,
stealing my tears
before I could cry.

There's no longer a filter
to the problems I face,
ther's disease, famine, and disgrace
stored away in my opened, private place.

In the cobwebs I captured
a woman's love, memories and hope;
her presence is my sun
and her embrace helps me cope.

Through the other trials I endure.
The radiation works to restore her health,
she fights her cancerous cells,
for her life is full of the family wealth.

Her struggles are compounded by
her workings, the internet dwellings
of my youngest brother in search
of true electronic feelings.

May his back be turned again
for him to look into their eyes
and be made to answer
the loud, tear-soaked whys.

It is a cobweb I live in
with an eight legged spider lurking
but I am not alone, for
I have a soulmate along side fighting.

Without her my life is doomed
she is my love, my life, my friend
I can feel the love she sends
today, tomorrow and to the end.