CARE

CARE
By Thaddeus Jaworsky

I always thought, "Why should I care?
No one else does, life isn't fair."
My past friends have stopped being nice
No one to turn to for advice

I'd cry myself to sleep because
I’d sense how empty my life was
And spent many hours in bed
Wondering why I wasn't dead

Nobody knows the pain I'm in
Because of my misleading grin
But I was just as much a fool
When you were acting calm and cool

You told me crap that you've gone through
And I have faced some of it, too
I want to help, but I am scared
'Cause previous friends haven't cared

But something's different, something good
It tells me that I really should
In you, there's something very rare
Because now I will always care...



But actually, there's nothing new
Because you made it clear, we're through
This poem wasn't all complete
Until you said we couldn't meet

I cry myself to sleep because
I can't believe how wrong I was
I didn't think we wouldn't last
Now opportunities have passed

You really hurt me, I must say
By throwing all our time away
From now on, I'll just expect lies
Since I don't want to be surprised

You say it's better I'm not there?
Well, let me tell you, I don't care...



And then I heard about your death
I'm sorry you were so depressed
That you committed suicide
I guess you kept it all inside

And now I have to cry again
Because we couldn't be good friends
But now it's too late to forgive
Since you decided not to live

I can’t help feeling really bad
I wish I hadn't been so mad
And if you were alive today
I would do things a different way

You may be gone, but now I swear
From this day on, I'll always care.