Blackness

Blackness fills my heart and soul
Slowly I lose all control
If I fall I won't return
Catch me so my heart won't yearn

I long for life that once tasted sweet
But it was lost in a bitter beat
Lost, I face the world alone
Not a prayer to make it on my own

If only you could hold me before
I hit the blackness I now store
Inside of me, never pouring out
I need to see what light is about

Could a promise of life you give me be true?
Or should I rely on somebody new?
If you will help me, please let me know
Before blackness fills my heart and soul

written in 1996