i just want a hug

"i just want a hug"
(9/02/02 - 18 years old)

i need to feel accepted
need to feel loved.
i need to care for me
i just want a hug.

i hurt thru the day
feeling rejected by all
what do i do wrong
so i always, always fall??

i'm sad, but so what?
it's felt every day.
but these pains i feel now
i just want to go away.

i've been hurt so so deep
thinking i'm in the wrong
i can't stop that thought
cuz i've hated me for so long.

but still i cry out
to all who will hear
i grab for your hand
despite all my fear.

i still can't comprehend
why people stand by
they don't give up
and won't let me die.

to me i'm not worth
any care i receive
but i think i would crumble
if it all was to leave

each day i walk on
i'm gaining some strength
it may take a while,
but recovery's no race.

i guess i wrote this
just to get some stuff out
thanks for listening
sorry if you don't know what its about.

(first posted exactly as is -except for a few mispellings- in "Invalid Item" )