Dear Victim,

Dear Victim,

I am your abuser, and this is what I give you:

I come to you in many forms, some of which you may never be aware. I come to you while you sleep. I come to you while you're awake. I come to you when you read, play, and work. I manifest myself in facets of your life that leave you wondering what just happened.

Sometimes, I'm a thought, whispering on a back burner of your mind; barely noticeable. Other times, I'm a loud roar, drowning out all else; causing you to cover your ears in agony. But always, always I'm there. I haunt you. I terrify you. I taunt you, ceaselessly. I stop you from living the carefree life which I so happily live.

I give you horrifying memories which make you cringe and cower in fear. I give you thoughts which make you want to end your life. I give you nightmares which make you beg for insomnia; never wanting to sleep again. I give you visions which make you beg for eternal blindness. I give you sounds which make you forever look over your shoulder.

I give you agonizing and never-ending physical symptoms. Your head aches; your stomach is forever tied in knots, thus, you cannot eat. Your depression robs you of a carefree and fulfilling life. Your bones and joints ache. Your insomnia finally gets the best of you; you yearn for healing sleep to escape the torments I've planted in your mind, but wait! Now you cannot sleep! And oh, how the doctors tire of seeing you, over and again.

"It's all in your head," they say.

This leaves you to suffer silently amidst a host of physical ailments, none of which can be explained by the modern miracles of medicine.

I give you feelings of unworthiness; thus, you feel so alone. You feel as though no one cares, and your self esteem plummets to murky depths. You swim in a sea of water which seemingly has no surface; your anxiety is so bad that it's hard to breathe. You struggle and gasp for air in my suffocating embrace.

But the one thing I'll never give you is freedom. I'm always here; always with you. I'm determined that you will forever dwell in my dark prison of mental torture. I'm determined to break your spirit, your mind, and steal your very heart and soul.

For I am your abuser, and this is what I give you.


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