When May I again Draw Near?

WHEN MAY I AGAIN DRAW NEAR?

Why, Lord, was I turned away once I'd beheld the sight
of Your love's radiant, burnished rays and respite in the Light?

How long must I sojourn here, a soul returned to earth ...
when will You Your plan make clear ~ the purpose of my birth?

When may I again draw near and this time truly stay?
When my lost child's laughter hear as she and angels play?

Hold once more in longing arms the brother I so mourn?
See safe at last from worldly harms the sister from me torn?

So many I have lost and grieve in Angels' wings are furled;
fleeting glimpses thrice perceived in ventures past this world.

How long must I wander here, a mortal chained to earth?
When may I again draw near... find measure in my worth?

What is my role in earth's Last Act ~ what part to me assigned...
that once well played will seal the pact ~ my destiny divined?

Where upon the stage of life does Your will bid me stand?
When ends the suffering, pain and strife once I've done all I can?

When, at last in your embrace, will I be carried home?
Behold once more Your holy face, no longer doomed to roam

in places evil, dark, and deep where wounded hearts lament...
the love they gave but could not keep and precious trust ill spent?

Until then I 'll journey on, still clinging to the hope
that soon will come my final dawn, sweet peace within it cloaked.

And as my weeping, weary heart puts forth its final beat,
let my life Your grace impart ~ Your plan for it complete.

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~ For Megan, Kirk, and Darcy...
wait for me at the Gate.
~ Kelly