Only Seventeen

I was ... yes, 17 ... when I wrote this one. Looking back, it could be adopted by most 17-year-old girls.

Only Seventeen

only seventeen
a senseless remark
seventeen is an age
loaded with feelings
curiosity, loneliness, love
sometimes even pain
trying to find answers
families and friends
can't always give
look somewhere else
maybe a boyfriend
yes, that's the answer
find someone to love
to return my love

i found him
i think
i like him a lot
will he like me back
we go to a movie
he holds me close
the night ends too soon
we kiss goodnight
goodbye

a year has past
only letters, no face
try to forget
look somewhere else
he's out there still
making me cry
wanting to hold him
the feeling won't die
force it to fade

a friend relieves me
focus on him
start anew
try to forget
he's always beside me
helping me through
yet i'm not sure
i think
he's not sure

never ending
pressure from friends
watching couples
mad and jealous
hoping to find
love as i see
hearing, but trying not
my sister talking
her boyfriend
at the other end
i go to sleep
try not to cry
wanting to hold
my first love

seventeen
confused

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I find it sad now that so many teenage girls let their happiness depend on whether or not a guy is interested. If only we could take the wisdom of the thirties and beyond back to our teen years and realize that a guy's acceptance is nothing at all compared to our own acceptance.