Fear of Rejection (2004 gold star)

Not bright enough
Not good enough
Forced talent
Is it true?

It’s what my mind says,
What my hand does
I won’t let me change
And it stings

Just write what you feel
But it has to be good
A double-edged sword
I expect so much of myself

What if they don’t like it
Will I even like it?
It only matters when it’s good
And it better be exquisite

So I push
Nothing flows anymore
Except tears for what once was
How could it get away?

Push harder
Birth something beautiful
Because ugly and raw
Will never fit your profile

My ego influencing
Every mark the pen leaves
Don’t shatter it
Prove you’re better than before

You want praise don’t you?
That’s what you’re after
To feel better
Like you’re worth something

Because it would kill you
To know you have nothing
No real talents
Why go on?