Inner Critic

Inner Critic
(12/20/04 -- 21 years old)

"Always wrong, always
Bad!" my Inner
Critic screams, complaining that once again it's
Disgusted with me.
Everything I've done was wrong:
Fumbling for words to say to a lover, or
Going out instead of staying
Home to do what's
"Important." (Always something more important.)

"Just do it right!
Keep on task -
Listen to me; don't distract!"
My insides scream; they don't let up
Not a word left to
Oppose what's heard. "You fuck up! You whore!
Piece of meat! Pig!"
Quit starting things you shouldn't begin
Resist temptation, resist
Sin.
Try being her, or her, or him...
"Use your
Voice; shut up - not a
Word" ... ?! ...
eXist for others; Be a saint; forgive. Silence your
Yells - stay strong to live. And
Zap away that Inner Kid!