Deep and Dark

The pain I feel inside,
So deep inside,
The unbearable pain.

Trying to be enough,
Trying to be better,
Trying to be more,
More than me.

I'm me,
I can't be anything more,
Anything more,
than me.

I can't believe this pain,
I can't believe noone cares,
I can't believe my life,
I can't believe any of this.

A jail cell created,
Just for me,
A jail cell created,
Only by me.

This feeling,
Feeling of pain,
Feeling of numb,
Feeling like,
A dead,
Lifeless,
Corpse.

Screaming out in pain,
noone can hear,
the world,
oblivious to my pain.

Living in a void,
Living in the darkness,
Living in pain.

Trying to be just perfect,
Trying to be what you want,
Not able to be what you want.

Yelling,
Screaming,
Loud voices,
Vomiting words of force,
Words of hate,
Words of failure,
Words directed at me.

Numb...
Pained...
Dead...