My Illusion

My Illusion

I see shadows of doubts late in the night
I feel swaying decisions between wrong and right

Lost in the vagueness of a distressing confusion
Torn between reality and my deceitful illusion

Running away from myself… I withdraw, I hide
The further I run… the deeper I fall inside

Carried away in my own foolish crime
All my thoughts seem frozen, unmoving in time

Pride conceals darkness, “evil’s hood”
Until reality was shown, and there I stood

The fire in your eyes does not feel the same
Stirring my great pride, I vainly try to tame

I repent, for I am in the wrong
Your forgiveness is what I long

All my rivers, have run dry….
All my fears, buried in my lie…

If I told you the truth… would you understand?
If I justified myself… would you take my hand?

Would you doubt my truth, if my heart revealed its fears?
Would you sense me crying, if my soul concealed its tears?

Would it matter My Love, if I told you today?
I never meant to hurt you, with that I stay

I’ve cut myself deep with my sword of pride
Only you have the power to mend, to heal me from inside

With that I am suspended, I await the calling
I beg my Angel of mercy to catch me, I’m falling.

Dondi Oct. 30, 2001