The Silent Love

I think you saw me today.

Did you? Did you see me?

I watched you sitting on your own.
Your body arched back and forward so beautifully.

Your fingers danced so delicately in the air
black torn rags hang lifeless from your breast.

Oh my God! You even smiled today.
You smiled so sweetly to yourself with your eyes closed as if you remembered something good.

I can feel you so much now.
Its amazing. I can feel your happiness.

Your hair swaying madly about your head
As if it were alive with energy.

I want you to be like this forever.
You make me so happy when you smile did you know?

I like you like this.
You forget that you're alone and you're just so happy.

I see your beautiful eyes light up.
You're just so amazing, watching you is the only thing worth doing now.

But I know, when you remember.
You feel the hurt inside.

you wake up every single day.
Nothing to do, nothing to feel, nothing to say.

Just like me, they'll never talk to you.
to be your friend.

You have nothing because they never wanted you
You're useless and alone.

I watched you cry yesterday.
You just sat there quietly.

No one saw you, they just ignored you.
You cried so much that day. I thought you'd never stop.

Your tears grew inside you like the pain that hurt you so much.
I saw you cry, you just sat there.

Did you know how beautiful you looked that day?

I saw your face;
black mascara ran delicately down your soft white cheeks.

Your eyes were so wide and dark.
You felt it didn't you; you tried to hide it from them.

You nearly died that day, just sitting there.
I wish I knew your pain so I could take it away.

I felt your loneliness again.

But then you turned! Did you see me?
Did you see me watching you?

Oh God! My heart was beating so fast.
I panicked! I saw your face, did you see mine?

Did you smile at me?
You stopped crying.

Oh no! Were you staring at me?
Time just stopped, it felt like ten thousand milli-seconds had passed.

I can't believe what I'm seeing!
I thought I saw you smile

Are you smiling at me?
Did you see me watching you?

You lay there now
resting your head in your arms.

And you fell asleep.
You fell asleep that day

The day I saw you smile.