Sinister Thoughts

My life is spinning and spiraling,
Into an unknown pit of despair.
My mind twists in circles,
Sinister Thoughts I do not dare.

One man that I detest,
And despise with all my heart.
I wish to wrap my arms ‘round him,
And rip his limbs apart.

His face, it sickens me,
I scream in an eternal rage.
I feel as though I’m an animal,
Locked in an unbreakable cage.

Then my young friend appears,
And I hold her by my side.
She clings to me tightly,
My anger I am forced to hide.

I look down upon her,
She cried in sadness and in pain.
I try and comfort her with words,
In my mind I wish the man slain.

“He will soon pay for his deeds,”
I promised and kissed her cheek.
She simply smiled and leaned against me,
Inside my anger reached its peak.

That night I tossed and turned,
Unable to get any sleep.
More menacing thoughts appeared,
And in my mind they did creep.

Thoughts of rusty blades,
A wooden spike and gasoline.
Thoughts of slicing him to pieces,
And leaving him for dead upon the scene.

I wake from my dream of golden thoughts,
To a harsh reality.
I knew what I wanted to do to him,
But I knew it could not be.