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#995204 added October 6, 2020 at 6:10pm
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Self-Shaming And Aging
when does it end?
the self-affirmations to the mirror
with just the right amount of lighting
that I'm still pretty
enough
for someone to what?
love?
respect?
stick up for me when down,
don't feel the love of self?
that once revealed as arrogant bravado
only masking insecurity laid upon me
from a man more ignorant and shaming?

You know you can rise above that?
You can break that mirror
that informs you to shame yourself
even while ageism still exists?

So, you dim the light a little more,
throw on a ball cap.
You eat right, still exercise
and boast, though
you know...
yes, feel that the indifferent eyes
aren't the same eyes
that once followed you
as your roamed, as you dressed
to impress, styled
and coyly smiled
for their appreciation.

You don't hold their eyes
in your eyes
in that mirror.
You hold your father's eyes
in your memory.

Tell yourself you're still beautiful...
uh-uh, no looking.


10.5.20


Echoes of that Christina song...

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